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just wondering...

They say God makes things happen for a reason but I always find myself wondering: why am I left motherless, why can't I find my father, why am I where I am today? I'm tired of wondering I just want answers.



But the answers are'nt going to come that easy, I just needa continue living my life, walkin my Jays. maybe the answers will come to me. Maybe one day I will understand. But for now imma continue wondering...

Picture Blog :)

temptaion

she has the biggest effect on me
&. she knows it
shes all around me
shes all around yuh
she can push me off the right track in a second
shes always there &.
shes hard to avoid.

her taste, touch and looks are
satisfying
if yuh dont keep yur cool yu'll go under
she takes advantage, many dont know her hidden flaws
or wat happens when fun is over
if yuh dont make the right decision
she'll fuck everything up.

everyone knows about her
but why doesn't anyone do anything?
because many have been blinded already.

Simple

lifes what you make it &
everything happens for a reason.

Success

it can be so close, but not close enough

or so far, but i can still see it

if yuh shoot for the moon & miss

yull land on a star_

the end of the road is close;;

just gotta keep it movin...

cant stop wont stop til i hit

Success :)

Music is my bestfriend

10 songs that im jammin' to

boyfriend #2

If you seek Amy

Karma

Damage

11h30

Starstruck

Knocks you down

Rompe Condones

One and Only

Cookie Jar

iPod is my bestfriend; hes there with me when Im mad sad &. happy. I like iPod best when hes screamin in my ears. iPod is there at all times and hes someone I can turn to. All iPods should be like thiss. If not maybe you should add 2 or 3 songs from the list.

Random

Hollister, Alexa, Shaq's head, cheesey fries, the strangers, lady bending over: a regular day.

totaL Crazziness...

okay ii know i haven't blogged in a mean minute but watever;; there hasn't been alot going on in the last past week or two! I mean I went to a party, school, work etc. But theres one thing that I want to talk about: all the VIOLENCE thats been happening is crazy at this point. I mean people are dying, schools are getting evacuated and basically people are going crazy! I just dont understand how someone can be so madd or hatfeul towards someone that they can pull the trigger and end someones lifee. ITS CRAZY!! I would never be able to I cant even stay madd at someone for a couple of days and to hear this is "gang affiliation" ugh! Anyways this is all crazy but its also an eye opener to many. Many people are starting to realize how valuable life is and how fast it can be takem away. I know one person who partied 24/7 and they experienced a life changer. But all im saying is this is rediculI!!

I want to share a quote that I read in a book and found very powerful: It kinda goes with
what I was saying in my last post:

" I was Mad when I didn't have shoes but I met someone who didnt have feet" IDK

Thiis iss Life;;

This week I've learned a very valuable lesson. Everyday I look around &. see so many different people. Everyone seems very happy :). I've been talking to many people &. I've learned that EVERYONE has their own struggles. You know that popular girl that has all the friends: she has problems. That kidd that gets good grades:he has problems. The kidd that has all the money: he has problems. We all have problems. From lifes problems, we gain something. We become ourself. My problems make me who I am. I learned when looking at my problems, I shouldn't feel bad. These problems are actually helping me,creating me. This WILL all help me in the future. Life is what you make it. Instead of sitting down complaining about my problems, I'm just going to deal with them. Someone always has it worser than you.

:)

today wasn`t interesting so....

_learned a new word "fantabulistical" by spongebob quote:
"its a fantabulistical day" :)
_moving into my brothers OLD room; biggest room in house :)
_made new blog...which are my troubles &. will be better then this
imsorealdeal.blogspot.com



goodbye:.

steaK &. CheesE :)

_ sO yesterday started w. me; my fam. &. buddy alexa going to a buffet fullof old ppl lovers. :) i Guess`ed this was where old ppl go on Valentines Day mii &. my buddy spiced up the breakfast by making happy face meals; Like on TVchannels liiKe disney &. tish like that; though ours wernt perfect i thinK we did a decent job :)

_aFter breakfast at the buffet we went to eblenS to get new kicKs!!! I LOVE SNEAKER STORES; this is where my mind wandered all over the Place! I managed to get a pair of One`s that came out :\ idreally feel them, &. niether does my mother so ill be returning them soon.

_mY day ended w. me getting a steak &. cheese sandwich w. fries. The only thing Ifell in love w. this Valentines day was my dinner :) it was yummy lol. As ii walKed home from the resturaunt ii fell face first into the snow. it wasn't even nice snow; it was the dirty snow on the curb of the sidewalk :( it was hilarious!

First Tiiime :D

Yeah so this is a first timer for me!! Thnx to a extraordinarily cool person; Jenifer. Im officailly a blogger. Blogging looks mighty fun & cool. The name is Bennett. (NO extra ees, not the last name) I go to Classical HiGh; juNior &. iim 16 :p By the way mike &. ikkes got new nasty flavors YUCK!!! Anways im the skinniest fatass everr seen & the coolest weird kidd around! I like music; meaning i love partyin'. But thats only when i get the chance. I freakin love church.... BELIEVE IT OR NOT! I also am muched loved w. mucho friends &. not hated much; though there is some... Yes and I freakin love kicks... ii think i have OSD or Obsessive Sneaker Disorder...yeah thats it. But for now iima leave it at that w. some piics of mii day!

Above is a pic of me &. mii bud chelsie (the white flowers better lol) & below is a pic of mii and mii buddy maddie & yes ii already know shes bombx2 ... lol